Expressions

"मन भारी है ४० सेर से भी कहीं ज्यादा मन जो भागता प्र्काश से भी कहीं ज्यादा आज थम गया है पोखर के पानी से भी कहीं ज्यादा मन उदास है उदासी से भी कहीं ज्यादा ।" Very true words describing my state of mind....... not by me of course!!!

My present engagement.......... testimonials ........ yes ........ to all the people who are close to my heart / have made a difference to my life / and the ones i miss often :( so trying to be as emotional as i can (rationally of course) ...... and to portray that in words is too difficult ....... but yes it helps me overcome an emotional block and grudges........ Mood : emotional Music : Zindagi ke safar mein ( kishore kumar)

yes ....... in a struggling phase that is suppose to last for few seasons !!!! seeing friends moving in to professional lives and out of relationships ultimately.......huh...... whats happenin??? may be I am stagnant......... yes frozen up in the 1000 bricks covered from all sides with some space for air to breathe and electronic media for entertainment and some sandwiches and sauce for survival ........just like dave level 0 ......... and yes the level never increases....... sigh!!! guess i am becoming paranoid!!!! leave that stuff....... trying hands at something new....... somethings like homedecorating learning to waltz (yes i m trying that too) web designing spanish cooking (my mom's fav sport) learning to draw potraits learning to draw (don't look at me like that) photography (keeps me sane) learning to blog (is that essential???) keep reading to discover how these vanish from the blog and my mind in the next few days !!!

Another B'day waiting to pass by...... like many others with no existence......getting an year older .... wondering about the purposelessness of life ...... and still running for achievements !!! but this year I am also adamant to make it special :) something to be fondly remembered !!! Cheers !!!!! Happy Birthday to me :)

THE TIME GAME http://members.iinet.net.au/~pontipak/r edsquare.html an interesting time pass.....just try it once. try to beat my score....its 25 secs

Friends are strange !!!!..... yes surprisingly .... u always predict them coz u know them for a long time and not coz our ideologies match..... it hurts but yes u can't avoid them..... they are such cruel people who makes ur life miserable without them..... the chemistry i share with one of my closest buddy (we think almost alike....paradox) is simply awesome..... but sometimes these similar minded beings get too similar to be self obsessed ..... that they don't even communicate despite being so closely occupying spaces on the same floors all the college life...... perhaps giving space to each other...... or maybe too bored of sharing the similar adventurous lives......:| it happens... but hey am I complaining.......... nooooooooo she has been a source of inspiration of my not so banal life.!!!!! I miss u :)

I was wondering how these 6 years have moulded my personality ...I have started looking at things with a different perspective all together now......... with a politically incorrect, socially out casted, emotionally choking one ......